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Thursday, October 15, 2009
I'm taking back my words . I just realised i can't move on . Yana told me , i can , i'm strong . But i realised i can't . I really can't ); I try avoiding you for this past few days , Yes i tried , but i knew i can't withstand the pain in me anymoree . If you say you're trying to forget me , why do you get mad everytime you see me on the line with someone else ? Why do you get mad when i accidentally send a msg to you , when the msg is nort meant for you ? I didn't do it on purpose kayhhhh . Why do you ask me to delete yr number , after receiving the wrong msg from me ?? Whyy ? Whyy do you always stare at me ?? Whyyy ? When *insertsnamehere* talked to you bout me , your tone changed to a sad tone , and you say you didnt want to talk bout me anymore . What does that mean ?? You're trying to forget meee ? When i'm on the phone with yr younger brother , why do you always ask him what did i talk about to him all along ?? It's that what you're saying you're trying to forget me ?? You can't stand seeing me with some other guy , being happy , and you went back home , cursing me all along . ); All along , i don't have any guyy . I don't have any interest in them anymore . My heart is still locked . I wonder , why i can't accept other guys easilyy like i used to last time ?? Whyy ? It's because i love you deep down in my heart . I really do . I may look like i don't even care bout you , don't even bother to look at you . But hey , inside i'm suffering like some shitxzxz . Yesteerday , when i'm onthephone with *insertsnamehere* , and i heard everyth , i just kept on crying , after such quite a long time nort crying ); What does this shows ?? I want you back ); I know this isn't mainly because of yr parents . My heart is only meant for you . I know , you can't forget about me . How can you simply forget bout our 5 months plus together ? Even though it's only 5 months , it means alot to us . Then there you are , trying to deny everyth , when *insertsnamehere* knows you're trying to lie . You can't hide it . My tears are meant for you ); I told you , i'm trying to move on , but i can't . I just can't . These months means alot to me . I can't accept other guys easily , like i used to last time . My heart is locked . You can't stand seeing me with other guys , and i can't stand seeing you with other girls . I will be crying , and you will be mad . Don't you understand all this Haikal ? Hais i don't want to say it . You contact with *insertsnamehere* to forget bout me , But she now knew how much i suffers all the while , and how much i love you . I'm nort the playgirl you used to know . Now i knew how much i really need you in my life . You're my pillar of strength . Everything just sucks without you here . I just need you back . I'm cryingg here , waiting for youu ); Haiss . I need you back , please ); Labels: )); Wednesday, September 9, 2009 Hey readers . It's close to 4.30am in the morning , and i still haven't slept yet . Well , i was nort sleepy , and was reading a book , "Eclipse" which i borrowed from the regional library yesterday , and i've finished it todayy . Fcuking hell bored , i just took the laptop , just search the internet fer some random informations . After i've gort bored over that , i read my old posts dated months ago . As i read those posts , tears started rolling down my cheeks . Those memories , tsk , really hurts me alot . All the memories with him ); After those 5 months i spent with him. Haishh . Even though its fcuking hurtful , i just kept on reading , but beside those tears , i smiled , knowing that he will always bring a smile to my face . Ouh hell , i just wish i could rewind times . He replied my msgs just now , since i msg him ystd night , and he didnt reply . Ouh well , i don't wanna talk bout that . Hmm , bye peeps . I probaby should just rest my swollen eyes right now . Byee . Labels: )); |
 A perfectly rebellious lady, A lady full of mixed emotions at the same time, Love to snap random shots at an unexpected timings, I have great faith in fools; self-confidence my friends call it. Basically, I'm just a normal humanbeing, just like you guys.  My One & Only Prince Charming♥ He's been my second pillar of strength , right after my family . He guide me,shower me with endless love , And he never seems to end it. That's the reason why we got on stronger throughout this 11 months plus , And we are still counting. |