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Saturday, September 26, 2009
Khiwakkk . Pp8 matyy . Oops . Kayh shuttup . Ouh yeah , the pictures , next time uhq yaww . Something happened . A-hole . First week of raye , was like damn tired uhq . Everyday , after school , went Raye with the rest of my family members , till midnight like that . Then yesterday , at Jurong , me and my cousins all like knockout already , because its like 12 plus alr . && Our dearest aunties and moms , still talking , laughing and discussing -.-" So yes , we all actually slept on the couch while waiting lahh kann . Then when it's time to go , we woke up , salam , take duit raye then cepat2 keluar , pergy carpark , masuk kerete , knockout lagyyy . Wa liao wei . Seriously , fcuking tired . Todayy , i didn't go lahh kan . Because something happened in the morning . Pfft . So i was alone at home , watching , " Bring it on ; Fight it to the finish " ;D Sementare tuh , Haikal dearest accompany me lahh kan , msg2 . So at last , slept in the bedroom , woke up by Aunt Yaty call , saying if i wanna follow or not go somewhere2 . Pffft . gotta get readyy . Byebye . Tuesday, September 22, 2009 Heyloh people ;D First of all , i just wanna wish all of you guys , Selamat Hari Raye Aidilfitri , Maaf Zahir Dan Batin ;D GEREYHQ LAHHH KANNNN ;D Hohoho . Iana smlm balik kampung , punyer lahhhhh gereyhhhhhhq ! Took lots of pictures yawwwwww . I'm gonna post all the pictures in the next post aye . Yadayadayada , went back with Haikal todaay . Grr . Bnyk songehhh taw that guy . Dahr tawu i taq lawa , buwat pehr tengok gmbr2 i . Pfftt . A-hole taq dektu . Waink ! ;D Then , went to CWP , met up with Shikin , Wan , Aiduh , And Yanaa at Banquet . Kecohhh pahhh kyterh . Hoho . Lots of sarcism , critisicing . Hoho . Do mind us yawww . So laugh here , laugh there , went to photo shop , print some pictures , And homee . Gotta get home fast , 'cause going out . At last , gotta know that we're going out after Mahgrib . Buwat penat jeq , buwat Iana kanchiong sakk .. Aiyaaa thambi . Yeayyeay ! Haikal becoming my partner fer 541 Raye Outing ;D Grayy yawww . Huhu ;D Kayh bye , photos viewing later ;D Byebye . Labels: iloveyouuuu . Tuesday, September 15, 2009 Shoots ! Heylohhhh ;D Hari Raya is near , woohhoo ! Ohmygawd . This year , i've gort 7 new clothes siaaa . What the fcuk . Hoho . Kayhh , shuttup bout hari raye , 'cause exams are nearing too . Kayh , this is soooo fcuking boring lahhhh . So these few days , i've been quite busy lahh kan , helping parents to clean up the house , i cleaned up my whole room all by myself . woohoo ! *includes mopping , shifting furnitures here and there * WOW , miss independent ;D Haha . Kayh lame . Grrr . Nothing to post about lahhh actually , just that im superb duperb ready fer Hari Rayaa ! ;D And i dont know who to couple with fer 541 raye outing -.-" See first lahhhh kayhhh . Hope haikal can uhq . That's alll . Pffft . Byebyebye . I still misses you . I'm still nort totally over you .. I still love you , even though if i didn't show it . byebye ); Labels: Shitxzxzz Thursday, September 10, 2009 Well , thought you're my sister babe . I thought we will share evrything together , Whatever related to us , But it seems that , you made me disbelieve it all . You're one such good friend ); Thanks fer everything , Thanks fer yr 'best' words a sister would give . Evrything just seems so wrong right now . Byeee. ); Wednesday, September 9, 2009 Okayh , maybe after these few posts , im gonna be inactive . Because of *inserts* . Ouh well . Actually , i slept at around 6 plus in the morning , because , i absolutely can't find the comfortable position to sleep well , and there i goes , keep tossing around the bed , adjusting the stuffy pillows around me . And when i have found the comfortable position ( phew ! i hugged my big strawberry pillow ;D ) , and was about to doze off , here comes the ringing and vibration on the bedside table . Duhr . Someone's calling . -.-" Uggghrr . I pushed my blanket awayy , and crawl on the bed to my bedside table . Errrrp . It's Hazwan number stated on the screeen . I picked it up , and it's Fadzly ( his friend ) , who called . Greatt uhq greaaat . Using yr friend's handphone to call me -.-" So kayh , precisely , we chitchat throughout the bloody morning until 6 plus . Because , Hazwan's need his phone back . Phewwww ! Can sleeep . My eyes were really puffy . Damn it . Then Fadzly said Fadzly ; " Gy tidoo luhrr . Dahr kul raper niek " me ; " Uhqq . later ." Fadzly ; " Aiyo , degil eyhq kau . Tido . Haikal pun surohh kau tidoo . Kankan Haikal ? (shouting to haikal) " ( Haikal in the background ; " BetolBetolBetol ! " ) Uhgrrr . when i heard his voice , haishhh . I just smiled instead of crying . Jyeahhh , people tell me to be strong . And im trying to right now (: Thanks friends . So then , the NCC guys were nort sleeping after their pre-dawn meal at the headquarters . 'Cause jyeahh , they have to be ready by 6.30 liddat . So put the phone down , charged my handphone , and went back to sleeep . I cuddled against the pillows surrounding me , hugged my strawberry pillow as tears rolling down my cheeks , and eventually , i was asleep . Woke up by Hazwan's msg , saying , " Msg Haikal Lerr " . I just deleted the msg , and went back to sleep . Woke up by mommy , saying we have to go to hospital . Grrr . in the morning . Im still sleeeeeeeeeeeepy siaaa . Shower , dress up , and offf . And now i got to go . Sorry , it has to end here . Byebye [: Labels: ouhhh freaking hell . Hey readers . It's close to 4.30am in the morning , and i still haven't slept yet . Well , i was nort sleepy , and was reading a book , "Eclipse" which i borrowed from the regional library yesterday , and i've finished it todayy . Fcuking hell bored , i just took the laptop , just search the internet fer some random informations . After i've gort bored over that , i read my old posts dated months ago . As i read those posts , tears started rolling down my cheeks . Those memories , tsk , really hurts me alot . All the memories with him ); After those 5 months i spent with him. Haishh . Even though its fcuking hurtful , i just kept on reading , but beside those tears , i smiled , knowing that he will always bring a smile to my face . Ouh hell , i just wish i could rewind times . He replied my msgs just now , since i msg him ystd night , and he didnt reply . Ouh well , i don't wanna talk bout that . Hmm , bye peeps . I probaby should just rest my swollen eyes right now . Byee . Labels: )); Tuesday, September 8, 2009  Sorry , but hell yeah , im just so down , That my interest fer blogging and internet , has just , gone down . Perhaps you guys know why . Isn't it like so obvious ? I would like to apologise to people who have been trying to contact me thru my phone , but i didnt reply yr msgs , or returned yr calls . I just nort in the mood fer this few days , and i just pushed my phone to the another side . I avoided you guys's calls & msgs . So sorry . Im just , ouh well , sorrry . Yeah , i have nort been using my phone fer some certain reasons . Im just so sorry guys . Sometimes , i didnt bring along my handphone when im out . So jyeah , sorry truckloads . I kept myself busy these days , and i spent most of the times with some certain friends . Friends who knew bout my sufferings ; Hey guys , i just wanna thank you guys fer being there fer me most of the time . I really appreciate you guys alot . ShikinClone , thanks aye . I owe you alot , thanks fer being there when i need you most . I talked to you bout my feelings , and im glad you understand me . Wan , you too , thanks alot fer words of laughters to cheer me up . I hope that you will helped me bout that aye . Thanks . Salam , you just rock (: You too , i spilled out all my feelings towards you , and really glad you understand me too . To other those whom i have left out , a million thanks to you guys . (: Thanks fer yr words of encouragement && show of care towards me [: Thanks fer offering me tissues when i cried . Thanks aye guys , i just don't know how i should show you guys my gratitude . Lovee ya people . You guys rock , really ;D And yeah , ouh my arm was injured , and i have to go around with part of left arm being bandaged -.-" It sucks lahh , seriously , when you have people staring at yr arm weirdly . -.-" A-hole . Ouh jyeah , Haikal went fer his NCC camp fer three days , and tmr he will be back , Hmm , yeah , even though there's nothing going on between us , we stilll contact randomly , but nort always . Jyeahhhhh . Im still down , even though im smiling & laughing . it just hurts me real badly . i wish i can have you back here . i wish i can hug you when im scared and cold . i wish i can feel you kissing my cheeks again when im feeling down . i wish i can feel the warmth of yr hands in my hands again when i need you . i just wish i can hear you laughing again , calling me monkey , when i did something clumsy . i just wish i can feel you hugging me from the back suprisingly . i just wish we will still have the times again when we were laughing out loudly under the void deck , teasing each other and chasing one another . i just wish , you will pinch my cheeks again , and let me pinch yr cheeks back . i wish i can still feel yr arm around my shoulders , pulling me close towards you and kissing my cheeks repeatedly . ouh dear , i really miss everything bout you , and im still waiting fer you , to be back here by my side . i wish upon the shooting star , hoping all my wishes come true . I love you , i really do ); Labels: sorry ): i have cried alot for this few days , and i wonder when this suffering's gonna end . yes , i have cried alot , the quote above mentioned it . my appetite is no longer there . with beloved friends , i've tried to keep a smile on my face , whereas i know , my heart is aching terribly . SnipSnap , its over ); Yes , yr parents had it all . Yr parents had the power to break us up . I wonder , why is yr parents blaming me everything fer yr results ?? Whyy ?? Am i too cruel , to let someone i love alot , fail his examinations ?? Am i that cruel , to let someone i love alot , has loads of RED marks on his results ? Am i that cruel ? But instead , fer all this time , since yr Mid-Year examinations results turned out pretty bad , i let you study , i force you to study , i don't allow you to go out often , i didn't contact you when you're having tuitions , cause i want you to concentrate on yr studies , But now , what all i get after forcing you , screaming at you , fought with you because of studies , is a PATHETIC break up . And yes, i know , there , yr parents standing , laughing at me , seeing me suffering after you were forced to leave me . They are putting ALL the blame on me . But now , let me ask you a question . Do you think that going out late at schoolnights with yr family members and only returned home during the wee hours in the morning benefits you ?? When i asked you if you can go out studyy with me and some other friends of ours , yr dad doesnt allow you to go . But when it comes to going out late at night , doing nothing , but slack here and there , go shopping , went to JB almost every weekends , obsessing yr mind with CARS , RACING , and some other shitxzxz stuffs , yr dad has no problem with that ! Whats wrong now huh ? They all pathetically think ITS ALL MY BLOODY FAULT ! Yr parents think they are doing the right thing , thinking that i obsessed yr mind with stupid stuffs , interrupting yr studying time all the time , when it is them who's doing it ! Im nort blaming yr parents fer evrything , but why must yr parents let me be the one to suffer ?? Whyy ? I remembered when yr dad called me late at night , screaming at his top of his voice , asking me why i wanted to have a relationship with you . i just kept quiet and he keep on screaming at me , and saying he will want to come over to my house and meet my parents . I seriously have no problem with that . Come and meet my parents . If yr dad seriously think im the one destroying evrything , why is my results maintaining , why does my results doesnt show any serious failure ? Just tell me whyy . Am i the one interrupting yr studies , or is it yr dad interrupting yr studies , obsessing yr mind with shitxzxz stuffs ? Im just speechless alr . Im the one suffering fer evrything , while you stood there , unable to move , seeing me crying everytime , and then asking me to stop cryingg . I dont know what you felt bout me anymore .. But yes , i wont be forgetting bout you that easily . We had this agreement aye ? Hmm , i just seriously don't understand everyth . I just hope all my tears fer you is worth it . I know , im really soft inside , and i broke down easily , heck care bout dontknowhowmany eyes looking at me weirdly . I just hope that , you will never forget bout me . You know ill be waiting fer you , and i will keep on encouraging you to excel in yr studies , heck care bout yr dad . i will just be right here waiting fer youu , you know i will , you know my promise to you is right . 03 April 2009 , will stay in my heart forever , Till now or never . I love you boy , i still do ); |
 A perfectly rebellious lady, A lady full of mixed emotions at the same time, Love to snap random shots at an unexpected timings, I have great faith in fools; self-confidence my friends call it. Basically, I'm just a normal humanbeing, just like you guys.  My One & Only Prince Charming♥ He's been my second pillar of strength , right after my family . He guide me,shower me with endless love , And he never seems to end it. That's the reason why we got on stronger throughout this 11 months plus , And we are still counting. |