HellowWellow , I need to hug my pillow . Nyahahaha . Okay i'm going crazy . Currently , it's 5.30am on the morning of 12 February 2010 . Yezz , i know. It's my 10th Monthsarry right <3 . Prince has gone to sleep a longlonglong hours ago already , and i'm stuck here since then . No life right , sitting here , every night after parents are asleep , and will only be snoring away after 5am . Nyahaha . Iana , you've got to stop this bad habit of yours instantly . School is starting in a few weeks away , and if you're going to continue this atrocious habit of yours , i tell you , you're gonna flunk in your studies next year , becauusseeeee you will be snoring during lessons instead ! Prince Boncet ! Please start to control my sleeping timing back please ): I don't wanna have this bad, horrid habit . Please ):

Prince Boncet says he's gonna bring me to Sentosa for our belated monthsarry celebration . Yipppee ! 

I love you so much ok pig ? Your cute princess here is gonna be sexcited for it mahn !  

Okay bleah . I think i should force myself to sleep now , but before that , i shall have my Monthsarry message type out first for my Prince Boncet (:

Hey love :) . I know i have wished you during our conversation on the phone hours ago . But I think , since i'm bored , and i'm dying to get myself some sleep , i will just type a longlonglong monthsarry message just for you :)

Throughout this 10 months , i admit , i was being suckish towards you , made a big fuss about a small thing , kept sulking over a tiniest thing ,replying your questions with idk idk idk . 

I vent my frustations on you out of a sudden . I refused to answer your questions when i'm speechless . I kept you waiting & waiting , and even though you were angry and about to burst out any moment , you just happen to calm down , and remained patient with me throughout .

Bby , i know , i'm not the perfect girl you've been wishing for all this while . All i did was giving you false hope everytime you wished for me to change . Bby , i'm so sorry , and i really don't mean to act like that way .

But i know that , i'm now being the best person i could ever be just for you . (': .

I will try to change my effing attitude just for you , i promise . Honey , i just hope you will still be able to remain patient with me , and guide me through these obstacles in my life .

Thanks bby , for going on with a girl like me , and not letting me go , even once . I lost faith in myself , being at the deepest end of a cliff , and were about to fall , but you came and pull me up right back from falling , never wish to let me go , never wish to end our relationship so abruptly . 

You've changed me into a better person . I've learnt not to be a crybaby anymore . You taught me what's the meaning of mature relationships , relationships that's happening nowadays . Now i knew that relationship isn't all about kissing , hugging , sulking , consoling . It's about the commitment an individual can commit to the relationship . Yez , i realise everything that i've faced in my relationship with you is a test to test my sincerity , faith , willingness to commit . It wasn't all about "I quit , i need a break" , and gave up , walking away from reality . No , it's all about how we faced the obstacles with mental strength , how we play with it , and how we overcome it and able to stand back on our own two feet .

You opened my eyes to these things baby , even if you don't realise how much you mean to my life .

You brightened up my day when i'm bored .

You gave me light when i'm in darkness .

You showered me with endless love when i lost one .

You wiped my tears away when you realised me crying away .

You hugged me tight when you know that it's your fault for making me cry.

You kept asking me what's wrong , even though when i sighed a bit out of a sudden .

You made me laugh out loud , when i don't wish to talk to you .

You kept kissing my cheeks because you know i love the way it feels .

Bby , i'm hoping for the best in our relationship . You're my strength to go on in everyday life .

I love you , i really do . But words can't really explain further how much my love is for you <3 

Look deep inside my heart , and you will see .

I love you , and i miss you dear <3 (': .