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Saturday, October 24, 2009
I'm superb moodless during these few days . Yesterday , after school , i was certainly nort myself . Faizal called , and he's mad at me all of the sudden ); I'm sorry , if i made you mad Faizal , even if i didnt know what made you mad ); I'm waiting fer your call since yesterday incident , I don't wanna lose you too soon , best friend ); Well , friends , thanks for the birthday wishes aye (: I love you guys alot , truckloads (: Ouh jyeah , Haikal Dearest , thanks fer the msg you sent me (: Even if we don't contact much these days , i still appreciate everything . Thanks fer wishing me , and for trying to make me smile on my special day yesterday (: I still love you though , still waiting (: Hizkil kawannnnn baekkkk akuhhh , Thanks fer being there fer me when i need someone (: Thanks fer spending time with me , when i'm alone , And fer making me laugh , smile every single time i'm about to cryy (: Thanks for everything , thanks fer helping me out . Syggggggggg kauuu (: Now , to *insertsnamehere* , You need not to pretend with me anymore , I heard every single word from her , about what you talk about me . I know you hate me fer who i am now . Smoking , slack around here and there every single day , and nort spending time with you guys . But hey , remember , you gort someone there fer you , two guys fer you . I have no one left . I knew you would say , i still have my friends what . But , if you were in my position , you would knew what i feel . I know , you would compare me with her , Why can she move on , where her case is much more worser than me , And i can't ?? Lemme tell you , different people has a different feelings , different mindset of thinking . Yes , you guys expect me to move on , and forget bout him . I'm sorry , i can't , and i won't , fer now . I just wanna beg to you guys , please please please don't ever ask me to move on . 'Cause i can't . My life , and my lovelife , is different . You , gort someone out there , to meet with , to text with , to on the phone with , but i have no one special . Thereotically , guys have been calling , texting me , but do i show any interest in them ? Did i entertain them ? But instead , i gave them a wall to entertain with . I still love him , i can't forget bout him I'm sorry , But i'm just disappointed in you and some of the others , fer nort supporting me in this . My change in behaviour , doesn't have anything to do with my lovelife . Even with these new behaviour , i don't even forget bout you and others . I gort my own purpose in doing this . I have my own limitations . I'm sorry . I just can't believe why you would do this to me . You even , doubt me about having an affair with him . What's wrong with you ?? I don't have a time fer a new relationship right now . I thought you trusted me ? I thought you say , your best friend won't ever betray you ? But now , what ? He called me this morning , just to tell me what you said about me and him . I seriously can't understand when you said , he puts me first before you ?? All this while , yesterday was the ever first time i talked to him in person . Do you see me everyday , running up to him , and talking to himm ? Do you ? Best friends have their own limitations . I can't tell you everything , cause i too , need my own privacy . It's like you haven't kept a secret from me before in yr life . I'm seriously disappointed with you . You doubt me , without asking me fer the truth . I love Haikal , only him , no one else . I didn't named you guys , 'cause i don't want people to know who you guys really are . You are still my best friend , but i'm just totally down with what you said . ); I rhink i'm gonna get my hands of the lappie now . i'm gonna get ready fer the outing later . haishhh . take care peeps . |
 A perfectly rebellious lady, A lady full of mixed emotions at the same time, Love to snap random shots at an unexpected timings, I have great faith in fools; self-confidence my friends call it. Basically, I'm just a normal humanbeing, just like you guys.  My One & Only Prince Charming♥ He's been my second pillar of strength , right after my family . He guide me,shower me with endless love , And he never seems to end it. That's the reason why we got on stronger throughout this 11 months plus , And we are still counting. |